Decide that you want it

Crossfit is a funny thing.

I was inspired judging a competition last weekend to want to put more emphasis on WODs and endurance over Olympic weightlifting, which has recently stolen my heart.

After a recent repeat of last year’s 14.4 in which I scored less than a year ago, and then being defeated multiple times in a partner competition this weekend, both experiences humbling to say the least, I was pretty confident that my decision to stick with weightlifting made more sense and was much more in line with my comfort zone.

But how do you improve if you aren’t willing to step outside that zone?

I was in complete awe of so many athletes that I watched compete this weekend and last, and motivated by SO MANY amazing, strong, women.. and I forgot how badly I wanted to be like them.. to have someone look up to me the way I look up to them, to be able to push my body well outside of its happy little 1-rep happy place, and do more than just whine about every workout that involves working up a sweat..

I complete these workouts and look back and think, yes, I can do hard things.. and I do. I do the WODs and they suck the life out of me and sometimes I cry, and sometimes I quit, and sometimes I just finish them and wonder how in the heck I did it. And I am no worse of a person because of it.

While I’m still wishy-washy at best, hours after I have semi-recovered from the day’s events, I am raising the bar for myself and determined to push 110% from at least now until the Open..